So I like my therapist but I don't know. She thinks h is gaslighting me. I understand I have all the symptoms of being gaslight but he's not gaslighting. That's just how I am probably given my past. I've never gotten into my past but I feel I have to to defend h. At the same time defending h may make her think she's right. This is probably why pdoc wants to see me next time in office. H is going with me to the pdoc appointment. I don't know how to fix this. How do I fix this?