Thanks @GoGo2 for your kind words.

The pain has found me today. I’ve put these things in my rear view mirror and am practicing good self care yet I am in pain. I wish I could extricate all memories of the friendship and move on. I have a tapping app on my phone and I’ve been tapping a lot to the dealing with grief meditation. It states that although you can tap away the stress, tension, anxiety etc associated with grieving, you can’t tap away the grief over losing someone. You have to go through it. I’m moving on but I find myself impatient with this pain that makes me want to sit and stare at the wall. I feel stuck right now. This episode makes me want to say to heck with relationships. Nothing but trouble.

I’m glad my daughter is coming down tomorrow for a few days. She’s going to help me with a tough project, we’ll go floating and hiking and up to the mountain to view the sunset and try a new restaurant and I’ll beat her at uno and rook. It will lift my spirits. We’ll take a picnic to the lake as well.

I’m going to be okay. I’m a strong, resilient woman and I don’t give myself enough credit for the things I’ve overcome. I am an amazing person with lots to offer. I won’t let this bias me. I’ll keep an open heart and mind.

I hope everyone has a peaceful day. Hugs to all.