My T emailed me last night and asked if a certain date in July would work to meet with this other therapist. I replied and said yeah and then asked if it would be in person or through zoom and if my T would be with us. Then later last night I sent another one and I kinda spilled my guts about how bad the restricting and the constant weighing myself has been. I didn't tell her about the med manipulation because I forgot to. But I figured I might as well go ahead and be honest so she can do what she has to do even if it is shady.

I know the media can influence EDs. I came out a couple days after Thanksgiving 2019 to my close family members and my therapist and pdoc. Then Elliot Page came out in December 2020 and I've been kind of motivated whenever he posts pictures. But he is 5'1 and I am 5''5 so he'll be smaller no matter what. I know I got my top surgery very quickly the way he did and I have an at home gym so I could get abs if I put in the work. I am only 7 pounds overweight according to the BMI. But I can see how the media influences EDs. I seemed to start having legit issues with food and weight loss after my top surgery when my chest was not my main source of dysphoria anymore. I know that can often happen to trans men.