Well, my dreams of being a mother have been crushed again. This time there's nothing I can do about it. H's testosterone levels are too low to get me pregnant. So the whole time I was on Clomid, I had no chance. And thinking if I lost weight with the bariatric surgery would help my chances, it won't. I'm devastated. Life is sure beating me up right now.

I've been getting migraines like every single day. Annoying. I have prescription medication but I know from experience that if I take it too many days in a row, I get rebound migraines, and I think that is what is happening. But, it is intolerable when I have a migraine to not take the medicine. There is no winning in this scenario.

Sometimes I struggle with wondering if I am too much for my T or if I am refusing her care or something. I'm trying to understand my own behavior in the relationship but it is difficult to know.

There's two things that he could do: take testosterone or lose weight. I don't think he wants to do either. I don't think he wants to be a dad. He seemed okay if it happened naturally or if I was the one who had to make changes, take meds, etc. But him changing something...probably not going to happen.

Dear Velcro, I'm so glad that you got an email from your T! My T has done similar things like forgetting to push send on a text! I'm glad that everything sounds like it is okay! I've totally been in your shoes where I have caused myself a lot of unnecessary anxiety. HUGS Kit