Ugh. I just sat in my first T’s office (not the one I am freaking out about) crying for an hour over this. I don’t feel any better. Also, she told me I am challenging to work with, because I reject all of her suggestions
of things to make me feel better. So now I feel like a REAL shitey client, I apologized (while crying my eyes out) and she said it is ok, and she understands.

But who wants to be challenging??

She also said that it is unethical for T’s to foster a dependency with their clients. This is EXACTLY what I am afraid my trauma T thinks. Now it has been confirmed by one source.

I have to be back at work for the rest of the afternoon, and I am barely holding myself together.