Well, today in therapy I finally said how much my trauma is affecting me and how it needs to be addressed ASAP and she said we can start doing more trauma based therapy especially since lately I've been doing better when it comes to distress tolerance (DBT is working!)

I'm kinda scared. She warned me how it's going to get worse before it gets better. Lately I've been thinking about it a lot but at the same time trying to push away those thoughts and numb all my feelings (successfully).