i can feel it clawing at my brain, i remember part of it from 2013

i had a memory from 2012 come back. in the memory i was

i remember a dog come running out of nowhere to bark at me, i froze in case the dog was going to be aggressive cause i think it was one of the breeds Mum taught me to be scared of cause some breeds of dog attack for fun, alsatians (spelling) for example, another example is staffies and pit bulls (pit bulls are illegal in the uk luckily,
the owner was there luckily and called the dog back

cause they was there if i'd tried to do a suicide that day it wouldnt of worked cause they would likely of called the police or ambulance or someone

i remembered that so vividly today and felt again all the emotions from that day, it was like i was back there

maybe the suicidial urges today was echos from that day, idk