I don't like to glorify the past

I am aware it is non-sense to talk like this, it is just that I lost control and a serious of bad events happened globale

I personally can only re-think my actions
Because I have not been a saint. At all

I started to think I was punished by karma or something

I don't want to see my older sister anymore. She was so worse than me, and childish beyond the line
I used to protect her and she didn't even realize
She never helped me with my unemployment condition. And despite being labelled like trash i am aware that just few years ago i used to be a working person who also help others
She did the minimum and never cared for any ethical issue. And i cant blame depression cause she finds plenty of time for malicious hobbys

I dont want to talk like this, but I lost completely control in 2017. My fault