Hey I've been around, just not posting or responding to anything.

I'm still feeling low and anxious. My pdoc increased my gabapentin a week ago to get better control over the anxiety. My anxiety is really strong in the mornings and evenings but I get a break for a few hours around noon.

The depression is doing its thing. I have low days and lower days. Today is one of the lower days.

I'm going to Mexico starting next Monday for a vacation. I'm going with my wife to an all inclusive resort. I'm planning to try to gain at least 10 pounds from all the eating and drinking. But I'll go to the gym there too.

I've been going to the gym 4 times a week. My trainer says he's seeing small improvements. I managed to do 30 minutes on the elliptical trainer today for the first time. My muscles and heart are weak and I'm trying to regain some strength. My Fitbit seems satisfied with my progress so far.

I run a popular blog and I put a lot of work and money into it. I do it because it is one of the few things that brings me any sense of accomplishment and hope. I don't make anything from it. I'm running an ad on a popular website to get some more visitors. The ad went live today so I'll see how it goes.