Dear T,
I want to share that thought I had from the mammography waiting room about human connection. To discuss it tomorrow. But I'm not sure if I should? Also, whether I should bring up an idea I had for another way to handle the break that would help with my anxiety, while you can maintain your privacy about where you're going. But I'm afraid you'll just be like, "nope!"

I want this to all feel in a good place before you go away. But I'm not entirely sure how to do that without just avoiding talking about anything related to the relationship--or your going away. But maybe that's what i need to do? I don't know. Or at least avoid that Friday.

I wish you were the sort of T who might be open to some sort of relaxed, fun thing on Friday, like a game or something. But I suspect you'd say no to that. I suppose I could ask... Or if I could show you some pictures, like old family stuff, but you might be weird about that, too. I would say we could discuss my writing, but, well, that's what got us into the most recent mess, so... I guess I could ask if there's something you've done with other clients for a lighter session. Other than just "let's avoid all deep topics."

I don't know...

Love,
LT