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Originally Posted by Sunflower123
I’m starting to have a really tough time with strong bouts of SI. I’m determined to live my best life but I’m hurting. No matter what positive spin I put on things, my daughter has taken further steps to widen the gap between us. It’s irreconcilable for the time being and that breaks my heart.
That’s about all I can say.
I hope everyone has a peaceful day.  |
I am sorry to hear that you are going through such hard times and that SI thoughts break through.
You are trying so hard to create a good life for yourself. You need to give yourself credit for that.
I hope your therapist can help you along the road. When I read about all you are going through with your daughter, I cannot help thinking: "What kind of type is this person (your daughter)?"
May be it is an idea that you ask yourself the same question. I am sure she has many positive sides as well as her bad ones, but the question is how variable is she? How is she when she is happy and generous? How does she behave when she turns her bad sides toward you? (Don't answer me, only yourself).
I hope that these questions do not disappoint you, because the only "thing" I hope this post perhaps can contribute to, is that you learn more about what to expect. When you sort of "know her pattern", you can, as time goes, learn to adapt yourself to her patterns (learn when to be silent and when it is possible to talk in a positive way to her).
There can still be many positive experiences with your daughter even if it looks dark for the time being. 
"This too shall pass"!
