I saw religion is not allowed here

My family has been smashed by 2 major causes: my personal failure around the age of 30 in 2018 and then covid-19
We lost hope, health, people (my father died and my mother got cancer and now turning old and poor), houses were damaged, lost a lot of money

I ask for a thought but i beg cosmic forces to save the soul of the rest of family, especially my mother, to heaven in the sky and light. They never deserved this darkness, they were creature of light and it is only my fault if our lives went badly downhill

I know it is too late
I have nothing but prayers