Hey @Autumn88 so great to hear from you!!

I am so sorry things are going so sh*tty for you. I know things spiral and you often think, when will my bad luck end?! - it will, it has to right?! the only way is up!
So, just double checking my reading of your message - you are back home, you are back on meds - how are they working out for you? feeling better on them?
I can't believe they mocked you for your religious beliefs and also that that psychiatrist was angry, very very unprofessional!! But, the OP psychiatrist, are they any good?

I hear you when you say that you have no one in real life to talk to. I am a kind of in the same boat in that way. But it makes it really hard to do anything risky, maybe if you had support you would have
felt like you would have tried the ECT or that you would attempt to move house? I was wondering though, with the house situation, if they offered you other housing could you not just turn it down or would you be forced to take it?
Sorry your sleep is still bad, I know what that feels like and it effects the rest of your day and your well being. I can imagine you feel a lot of anxiety with that. Tell me, do you have any good things on the horizon? things to concentrate on, I find that helps!

Haha glad you like my name, Autumn is pretty too - with the leaves and colour changes, and yes I have some lovely fields, forests and wildlife - horses and sheep and a few farms, just a 5- 10 minute walk from me I try to get out in nature when I can, nature is healing!

Hope to hear from you soon! Forest Child x