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Yesterday, 09:51 AM
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Desert Kitty hates titles
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Member Since: Jul 2008
Location: TARDIS
Posts: 12,760
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Originally Posted by Stillhuman
I知 struggling. I feel like I am depressed. I want to just give up and rest forever. It seems like life is so hard.
I can稚 make anything work. I知 hiding out from my job because I just feel hopeless. Like I知 useless at my job, but I am also severely anxious. But I feel like I exist on the edge of my nerves to get through work. I go through the motions on most days.
I feel like they just want my apartment to be unliveable so I値l be forced to leave.
I want to give up. Not work. Not bother with anything. I struggle with passive ideation because I have no confidence in changing anything. My living situation. My job. I feel hopeless.
I don稚 have the ability to rest because I知 a paycheque away from homelessness.
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I feel like this a lot too. Terrified of growing older alone and our safety nets are in peril, what little we have to begin with.
In my building, they started putting in laminate flooring instead of carpet, so you can really hear all the noise from people. The guy above me walked like an elephant and had guests all the time thankfully moved out. BUT now I'm worried about what kind of neighbor I'll get this time. More uncertainty. Maybe the same?  There's also construction on going next door, as they are building more apartments but the LUXURY kind. It's all day, even Saturdays.
Trying to make real connections or close friends has been futile. The efforts I've made have stretched me so thin now, people ghost me left and right. I wish I had a pet, as they love you unconditionally but taking care of me is hard enough. I have no support at all; life is hard and getting harder in this country.
I like your member name and kitty avatar. Yes, you're human we all are. And we are social creatures, it's in our DNA to want to connect. It was for survival and still is.
Last edited by nonightowl; Yesterday at 11:42 AM.
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