I haven't felt like this in years, the overwhelming hoplessnes, the intense saddness, that horrible hollowing feeling in my chest.
It's been so long since I've had these feelings for more than a month, Not since I was 14, nonone listened then why would they now? Everything is so jumbled in my head.

I don't get it, why now? Why do I spend my nights crying, my days trying just to get out of bed, convincing everyone I'm fine, no that I'm great.
I guess it's just to many memories, to many suppressed emotions coming back and getting their revenge.

I'm sorry, I just had to get this out, I'm sorry for taking up time.