Overwhelmed

I haven't felt like this in years, the overwhelming hoplessnes, the intense saddness, that horrible hollowing feeling in my chest.
It's been so long since I've had these feelings for more than a month, Not since I was 14, nonone listened then why would they now? Everything is so jumbled in my head.

I don't get it, why now? Why do I spend my nights crying, my days trying just to get out of bed, convincing everyone I'm fine, no that I'm great.
I guess it's just to many memories, to many suppressed emotions coming back and getting their revenge.

I'm sorry, I just had to get this out, I'm sorry for taking up time.

(((((Silver)))))

You never have to apologize for reaching out for help. It sounds like you're going through a really tough time and need all the support you can get, so keep reaching out.

Is there anything that could have triggered these intense emoitons? Do you think you'd be able to try to find a T to see? It really sounds like you need someone professional to talk to. Have you been able to call your doc and schedule an appointment? If anxiety is an issue, s/he might be able to give you a benzo to help in the short term; unfortunately ADs take a long time to go into full effect.

I hope you can get through this day safely. PM me if you need anything.

Take gentle care,



J

i felt like that before...the way i helped myself was taking an extremly long walk...i walked on a road till i was super tierd...but i kept walking...then i sat down for a long time smoked a cigarette and sat even more...then i walked home for a very long time and went to sleep the next day i wasnt feelin much better but i was tierd from the walk...i felt better the next day

I tried to get into the doctor today but they couldn't fit me in, and today was the only day off besides Friday and I'm busy on Friday, I guess I can try next week. Just feeling really frustrated and sad, This July has been really hard, I guess my depression is getting worse because the actually aniversiry of the car accident is drawing closer and closer.

Everyone IRL keeps invaldating my feelings too, my friends make me feel really alone or like I'm overreacting to everything. I told them I was going to the doctor to see if I could get on some medicene for my anxiety and they told me I was taking the easy way out and that it was a bad idea and that I should toughen up and just deal, and that medicen would make everything worse. They have a funny way of bringing up my mental health and making me feel like crap about it, I asked them to help me contact a thearpist because it is really hard for me to do it, or possibly just sit with me when I made the call and they told me no, it wasn't their psychological problem it was mine and that I should just deal with it and grow up...

*Sigh* I just feel so alone with people, yet I know isolation is bad for me, it just feels like the world is going to swallow me whole. I think I may go for a walk later to clear my head, to many thoughts.
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Thank you for replying J and cpljacksparrow, it means alot.

no prob silver id like to hear from u more get to know you and help you out i think we can help each other