well here i am...i woke up this am...so many feelings..anxious..scared..sad..tormented..lost..
tomorrow is my first day back to work....will i make it??is my house in order? am i ready ? will i have a panic attack? will everyone look at me like gee i wonder if she is ok?? i guess i could add confused to my list of feelings this am..i know i have to make this step..i guess i am afraid of failure...you know what bothers me the most in all of this..i want to get better number one for me..but most of all i want to get better for my young daughter..i want her to grow up seeing a strong .stable mom..i want her to know she doesnt have to settle for less then what she desrves in life..she doesnt have to settle for abusive relationships..she doesnt have to take care of someone..fix someone..she drives me to get better for these reasons..but yet here i am feeling like im gonna fail her..i just wish i could get up off the floor and get better...why is it so hard..i just want all my eggs in one basket so to say...therapy is so slow...and my mind races...if i feel like this today what is tomorrow gonna be like???any advice please help????