i have been on the phone with my therapist for the last 45 minutes talking to him- he actually called me, i guess on friday when i saw him he said things didnt seem right with me- so he wanted to make sure i was okay today. whatever....i told him at first i was fine then he gave me this lecture how i need to be honest and upfront- i said you dont want me to be honest and upfront he said why i said cuz you wont like what i have to say- he said go for it- so i started to cry and i told him im hurting bad and im SIing at least once or more a day and that i need to talk about other things than just my SIing in therapy- i told him how i feel useless and worthless and i told him how i just want it all to go away and i told him i quit taking my meds cuz they dont work and im tired of calling the Pdoc to get them altered or changed and that im angry and im depressed and that i can not breathe or relax in my own body and that im about to breakdown mentally- all he said was come see me at 5pm - wtf? wtf? i said what thats it- he said well i need to see you in order to decide if you are going to be admitted to the crisis unit or not. %#@&#! this %#@&#!- why why cant he just listen to me me instead of being all authoritive on me- i said to him that he really didnt care- cuz right now all i need is a friend to talk to and not feel like if i say im depressed that they will say go to the hospital i just really need someone to listen to me for once just once- im hurting here and my t doesnt care other than to tell me im most likely going to the crisis center- i hate him- i just want him to listen- sorry for my venting im just really hurt and upset on top of what i was already feeling- i give up i hate the crisis center