((((Mike))))

((((wmd))))

Thank You both for that but i just don't know.

My eldest son is now old enough to see my social services files....it's just rammed it home that my other 3 can when they come of age too.

And there's so much bad stuff in there. They're gonna find out their Mom was an incest victim, a runaway brat, a child prostitute, a teenage drunken suicidal screw-up.

There is SO much for them to be ashamed of esp when added to the fact that i didn't manage to rear one of them for the entirety of their childhood.

IDK guess there's no point worrying about it...they'll either still love or wont right?

Again...Mike...wmd...ty for replying, it does help me come to terms with it eventually.