I am so frustrated depressed and alone. I just si'd waiting for Doc John to answer impossible questions on the chat. I am having a very hard time with my memories and emotions. I feel like I have noone to turn to. I dont know what to do, I am so low right now and feel like I have noone to turn to. So instead I SI and drink. I dont know how to handle memories, how to bring myself to ask for help.... I just need someone to know everything and to hold my habd through everything! I dont know how to ask for help finding a therapist let alone tell a complete stranger that I have a hx sa si alcohol abuse as well as a horrible previous experience with a pdoc. I dont know how to say any of this out loud. I feel completely helpless, I also now have an injury that prevents me from working. I have a boyfriend, but I just cant talk about all of this outloud. I feel so alone and helpless. I dont know what to do!