My appointment went fairly well. Learned just that she's being bullied by another alter we were unaware of. I'm not taking that to well. There are so many alters already. I just can't deal with a thought of knowing that there is even another. Damn how many are there ! I just can't deal with it right now. I'm just numb. And now my T has brought back up me cutting back working to part time. I just can't do it right now. I'm the only one working. My hubby is in school and having to quit after this semester because of money. I'm trying my hardest to keep working, I don't want to fail again. But I know in the back of my head that T is right. That something is going to have to give somewhere. It's a lot of fear. I just don't know how to take care of myself and understand what is best for me. I know it me head, but I can't act on it. He reminded me about how bad it's been in the past and asked if I wanted to live like that again. And I don't. I was to one point where I didn't leave my house for a year. I don't want to be like that again. But I'm so tired and scared I've got that feeling back to close off again. Ok, think I'm just going to go back to sleep again now. Bye, Monty