Kids are in bed, the tears are here now. It's not just depression, it's anxiety, it's "God I'm stupid", it's "why can't it be me" (that's in his arms tonight), it's "because you screwed it upn 17 years ago, that's why and now you except him to leave his life for you and you are seriously upset because he doesn't know what to do??", it's I just want to scream, it's "It's after midnight, you really think he's going to write?", it's "it's after midnight and you have to get up AND function the next day", it's THE TEARS WON'T STOP and they are my fault. How do you make them stop? I know, exercise helps, doing other things to take my mind off it helps, I know, but I don't know--make any sense? I know what I would tell a friend, so why can't I do it?? :Bawling: