I have clinical depression, and feel that I unconsiously choose to stay that way at times...thats its a fantasy as good as my grandios fantasys..and for me if anyone even attempts to tell me anything positive during this times, I want to "attack" them because they are a threat to my "fantasy" and if I am forced to face something I'm not read for that is a scary place to be and the depression does a good job at keeping me internally safe...it says so many things to me and those around me, it says "Keep out",...its only through working through the past that I can see where I transformed my rage and feelings of disappointment into that dark place called depression...thats the only reason I feel at times no one understands me its because I'm afraid they well understand me and then what? I've got to face feelings?...as I say I am dx with major depression so I do have license to say this..