jess i wish there was something i could do to help you, you're a beautiful person and i wish you could see that.
what you're boyfriend did was in no way you're fault, his responsible for his own actions, not you.
You need to stop blaming yourself, none of this is you're fault.
I do understand how hurt you are and it upsets me too cos i don't know what i can do to help.
Maybe you should try talk to the school counsellor, that way you're not keeping these feeling bottled up inside of you? or you could talk to me, i'm willing to listen
ily Jess,
you can get through this because you deserve to be happy