Thanks blame, it is so hard. I think that its frustrating because how long it takes for one thing. The same thing keeps coming up over and over and trying to break through it is hard. I keep trying and trying and it is hard. I think i am starting to see more clearly though. I see that there are many peices of me. Not multiple personality just fragmented parts. There is a kid part and a seperate 9 year old part and me. I know it sounds crazy but its like with the nine year old part of me I have places stuck back at that age. She is the one that causes the physicl pain as flashbacks and she screams alot. I know she is me but she has her own seperatness. Does that make sense? I wonder if trauma does this to other people?