My Pdoc told me that I have PTSD several months ago, but I didn't research it&he didn't explain what it was or what to expect. I've done enough research now that I know what it is&what the symptoms are, but I don't know how to procede. I'm angry all of the time, depressed all of the time-my meds&therapy aren't working. My bf pushes all of my buttons until I'm extremely agitated&I can't leave because I have no where to go&no money to do it with. I have no friends or family who will take me in. I'm just starting to get on these message boards to try to learn how to cope&no one has told me any coping skills, just "I'm sorry that's what is happening to you." How do you stop being angry all of the time? How do you stop being sad all of the time? I also have bipolar. I also don't know how to deal w/my bf. How can I get him to stop pushing all of my buttons&yelling at me-both of which are triggers for me. I've told him what's wrong w/his behavior but he won't acccept any responsibility. He just screamed at me "You are always accusing me of victimizing you!" Well, isn't he when he keeps playing head games&yelling? He doesn't try to understand even though we've attended therapy together to work out our problems. One of MY problems is I give all of my power away-that's how I was raised-you do what I say or you'll get beaten&verbally&emotionally attacked. I just go along with whatever he says because otherwise we'll end up in another argument where it's all my fault&he just does whatever he wants to anyway. For instance, he'll ask me what I want for dinner, give me several choices, I tell him what I want, then he comes &says doesn't x sound better? In other words I didn't pick what he wanted for dinner. Why is he even asking me? He never listens to me, lies to me constantly "I love you"&lays all blame for any problem I'm having on me. How is everything always my fault? If I complain about something he either starts yelling at me or gets mad at me for complaining. Everyone complains sometimes. Why can't I? In my last therapy session he essentially sat there&told my doc about how I'd written him a letter saying my anger/problems w/PTSD weren't his fault&he's OK w/it now because I don't blame him for any of out relationship problems. It takes 2 to tango-which was also in the letter, but he neglected to mention that. He also claimed that he does ALL of the housework&he doesn't. I clean up the kitchen even when I wasn't the one eating. I fold all of his clothes when he gets around to throwing them in the washer-I have to put them in the dryer, I dust, I clean the bathroom, I clean out the cat boxes twice a week, I take out the trash&getthe recycling together&wash all of the towels&sheets. He vacuums once every 2 months&scrubs out the shower/tub because I can't do those things w/out hurting my back. So now I have to go back to my doc&tell him he lied. Who's my doc going to believe? I'm just sick of being attacked&angry&sad all of the time. Does anyone have some advice considering my financial situation&the fact that I still care about what my bf thinks of me&whether he loves me. And I don't know how to control my anger/sadness?