Sometimes I think i walk about this place with my eyes closed as i cannot believe ive missed this post and its on toits third page. I want to appologise for that. As for Doctors, it must be very scary to have to see the docs that you do. I can only imagine how difficult it is to take all the meds you do. Its a wonder you can still be all that you are to everyone here. I can see whay you would be afraid about going to any place that makes you uncomfortable. But i think you need totake the bull by the horns and consider what option will give you the best medical care, and then go for that one. Im with you, i know its frightening, but flowers should be healthy.