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Originally Posted by angel730
I haven't been on this site in a really long time but I just really need to talk. The reason I haven't been here is I've just ignored my problems like they weren’t real. For the most part it worked. I dropped out of college when I stopped going to class because I couldn’t take it anymore. I know it sounds odd but it solved all that anxiety and depression of being a failure when I was there. I just ignored it and it went away. I was recently attacked at my job by a person with MR. I tried to deal with the anxiety of working with a person that constantly tried to attack me, but I ended up quitting because it became too much. I worked temporarily for my dad's company but it was only a temp so now I'm jobless. It's hard to ignore that problem. I just kept living in a fantasy world to block out my own pathetic life because if i acknowledged it, I don’t think i could deal. I have no one that I can really talk to. My family doesn’t get weakness and don’t even see my pain when I try to let them in. I have superficial friends mostly except for a few close ones. I tried letting my best friend in and her response was that she didn’t really know me then. I then did a cover up and just said it was a bad day. no one in my life understands me and i have a hard time letting people see my bad side. i feel once they see the real me, how i really feel, that they could never look at me as a friend again. they would just see me as their reliability, the friend they have to constantly pick up. i don’t want to be that. but i need someone to talk to....
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*massive safe cuddles*
You remind me a lot of myself. I have a habit of trying to just ignore my problems thinking that "maybe they'll just go away."