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Originally Posted by Manda86
Yeah... unfortunately I ended up doing "bad" things right after he left,
and several more times yesterday and today 
I am starting to think that, if I get this emotional before he goes to drill,
and I barely survived deployment... maybe I'm not cut out to be an Army wife. 
And that scares the hell out of me, because I can't imagine my life without him,
but Army wives are supposed to be all strong and supportive and stuff... not all
weak and emotional... he needs to be focusing on Army stuff at drills -
not having to worrying about whether his wife is doing "bad" things or being all depressed and stuff.  |
Ah Manda...you can't control what he worries or thinks about. Part of his training is being able to separate the Army from home. Of course he's going to worry about you, but he's trained to be able to "compartmentalize". Part of your job as an Army wife--and a human--is to take care of you. It's not that you're not cut out to be an Army wife, it's that you're struggling right now and need to know you can get through this, you can get through this depression and "bad" things. You are so worth it, hon. Don't give up on yourself. Next time you feel the urge to do something "bad"--look in the mirror and see how wonderful you are.
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