Hi there,
I was reading up on your blog about some of your issues.
It sounds like your meds are not right.
If you take lamictal the recommended maintanance dose is 200mg. that is the recommended dose.
The dose goes up from that as needed for unstable moods....for example my pdoc just increased mine to 250mg because I was having mixed episodes, hypomania and self loathing in the same day....
I obcess alot.
I also take geodon, an atypical,(it is weight neutral) normally I take 40mg at night as a maintenance dose but since I am hypomanic she has increased it to 80mg at night and 40mg during the day.
It helps with the obcessive thoughts...
and I was glued to the internet, life was getting unbalanced.
I am bipolar 1.
I also take .5mg of klonipin to help me sleep at night which works thankfully.

ARe you taking an anti depressant? I can't because they make me manic. Lamictal is great because it has anti depressant qualities and this is why your dose must start at 200mg.

I don't know how old you are but I have been having an identity crisis this past few weeks, very self critical and loathing, crying over low self esteem issues, wondering about my life and how I can make more sense of it.
all of this intense over analyzing is part of my mania, it became my project the object of my attention.
When I get like this I can obcess about anything and make it my project...does this make sense?
keep posting
I know how hard it is....I do understand.
You are not alone.
Feel free to PM anytime.
bizi