First off, welcome to pc. I think it's great that you've come here for support. You will find a lot of support and information here. We do have a relationship and communication chat on a regular basis (check the calendar) above. I am so sorry you're going through all these emotions at one time in very quick succession. You're right, you need to get him to define "girlfriend." Does he mean a friend that is a girl, or someone he wants to be with; and is his idea of a girlfriend exclusive? For so many years I played the "doormat" I thought about having it tatooed on my forehead. It got to the point where I felt like a puppy waiting for scraps from the table. I was worth more than that and so are you. So are you!!! The best way to talk to him is in person, in a non-confrontational, non-emotional way. Be honest with him by saying that you enjoy having him as a boyfriend and since you've been seeing each other, you haven't been on the dating website and are wondering if he has. If he says he has, ask him why and tell him it makes you uncomfortable. If he says he isn't interested in an exclusive bf/gf relationship, ask him why and tell him that you are. It's ok to do that. 2 things to keep in mind, though: you've only known each other two months; if he says no to seeing other exclusively and you aren't comfortable with that, let him know that for your health, both physical and emotional, you won't engage in sex; if he's ok with that, take the time to get to get to know each other without limiting yourself to just him. Secondly, regardless of the outcome, remember you ARE beautiful, you ARE desireable.