(((((((((((((( clara )))))))))))))))))))))

I am sorry that you are having a hard time.
Are you in therapy? I find a combo of therapy and meds very helpful for my depression and other issues. I don't know if your husband would be willing to take part in some sort of therapy with you so he could understand what you are going through and maybe that would change his perspective on the issues. Please keep trying there is hope, things can get better.