What's your eating problem? Not enough? Or too much? If it's not enough you may be like me. I take Wellbutrin XL&Geodon&they really kill your appetite. I went from 203lbs. at the beginning of 2007 to around 114lbs. now. I eat only 2 meals a day&I also DO have the appetite for chocolate! If you're eating too much, it may be you're eating for comfort-that's what I used to do when I was heavy&felt yucky. Don't beat yourself up about it-beating yourself up doesn't make you gain or lose weight! Life is hard once you hit about 12-13 years old. So many physical changes&emotional changes&when your family isn't very nice it's even harder. It won't be like this forever! Remember you're the only one like you&you're special because of that-you're here for a reason-we all are-though it may not be clear now-it will eventually become clearer. Keep your chin up-I know what it's like to have punishing parents when you haven't done anything-you will eventually get away from them. Remember you can't change them, but you can find others-friends or family or teachers-ministers that can fill in those holes your parents aren't filling in your life.