Hi Muffy,

if you were staring at the celing you were looking up .

sometimes I hope they see us looking thinking and wondering . The relationships continue I believe. I had an expereince that tells me so.

I did not have any last moments to spend with either parent. Unfortunately abuse circumstances proibited me from being able to spend the last two Christamases with my father.

When I was told he died on the phone I went into the shower and had this expereince of being held by him as a child .

With my Mother I was told about her last words to my Neighbor Mary . She just spoke her name with a fightened look . She had a brain anurisum and never regained conciousness, I did not get to say good by to either one.

it was a surreall experience . I never felt quite there durring both weeks of the funerals. just portions come back durring those times.

I'm wondering if your trying to remember to see if you crossed all your t's and dotted all your I's durring that time. You do that here with everyone .

Patricia