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Feb 21, 2009, 10:52 AM
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Member Since: Jun 2007
Location: Chicago, Illinois
Posts: 5,518
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Originally Posted by _Sky
Don't watch the news?
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Sky
I know you're not addressing me, but that's what people told me when I was a little girl and wanted to know what was happening. When it got particularly ugly (inside my home or outside my home), I was placed in front of the TV to watch cartoons - or sent to my room. To this day, cartoons make me furious. The cartoons were just as offensive, and they were no substitute for a teacher who could explain to me exactly what was happening in my life. They didn't place me there for MY benefit - they just wanted to get rid of me. 
I hated watching any type of TV when I was a kid because it blocked access to adults - couldn't disturb their "programs." When adults became too nervous about the real world and the danger they placed me in, they still refused to help me. It was too much for them, so they abandoned me to alcohol, drugs, television and church - and pretended I didn't exist.
My only options now are watching a furnace that is about to fall on me, watch a TV screen, or watch a computer screen. How does this bring peace - whether you watch TV or not? 
My husband is Mexican-American, but he was born and raised in the U.S. and his family has been there for generations. He's never even been to Mexico, and doesn't even know the language. His parents were born here too. 
My son is half-black, but my husband is his "dad." They were out yesterday together. A stranger started pushing my son around demanding that he speak Spanish and saying he's denying his Mexican roots. It's also possible he was testing my son to see if he was "illegal." Excuse me? My son is not Mexican and my HUSBAND doesn't even know Spanish! 
I worry about my husband and son when they are away from me. I'm worried some bored kid or angry adult will decide it might be fun to mess with an "old hag" (or people of color on the streets) in order to prove he's a man - or take out his revenge. If he attacks my family, I will starve to death waiting for them to return. If my family comes home to a horrific scene, they will be LIVID and will NEVER forget. I refuse to carry a gun.
What would you suggest? 
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