((((((((((((Earthmama))))))))))) I felt/feel the same way at times. When I was first told I had DID, I rejected it full on. It took me years to even consider it and that was after I tried everything I knew to prove that it wasn't true.

Once I started trying to accept it though, I realized that it answered so many things. I had a lot of "Aha" moments after that. It made my entire life make so much more sense, even though it was hard.

The thing is, it is you. No matter how many barriers are in your brain, no matter how the brain is parted, it's all you. Awareness is so hard, I know. Some days I wish I never had begun this journey but in other ways, as painful as it can be, I'm glad I'm here.

Because awareness affects more than just us. It affects our children and how we react to them and others in our lives. For that, I'm thankful I have awareness. And that awareness will bring healing in time.

Hang in there earthmama. We're here and we care.