earth, like they all said, DID kept you alive. annoying as it is now, it was a gift that YOUR BRAIN was so creative that it was able to come up with a way to get through. now, looking at it is the only way out.

like w2h, it answered a lot when i finally accepted it. Mind, not all have accepted.... namely the former host. and life gets difficult when she is "in". I don't know what it will take for her to understand either.
anyway, just take it one day at a time.... breathe.... lean on those who have gone thru this before you.