chaotic, I don't know what to say. I know I've been seeing my t over 5yrs now and I STILL STRUGGLE TO BE PRESENT with people close to me, I just have to catch myself doing it and make myself be there. I also think that we sometimes go backwards to learn alittle bit more and then we can correct it. a yr and half isn't really a big lenght of time where healing is concern. Someone use to tell me that It took a long time to get good and lost in the forest and it takes just as long to come back.