I've recently decided for the last time to let go of a toxic friendship that I've had for the last two years. This is a guy who I felt I could trust with my own life but now I must let the toxic friendship go. I've told him to get out of my life two other times before and I always run back to him because I'm too weak to stand on my own. He was always there for me, knew me inside and out and well he was my crutch in life. He's betrayed me in the worst way that any man can do to a woman but even that I find myself hard to kick him out of my life. I still can't trust him and believe that he's sorry for what he did to me. I always had him being that reassurance in my life that I'm on the right path and he was that person in my life that would tell me things that I felt I wasn't worthy enough to tell myself. I think its pretty obvious that I have very low self-esteem by now. Well I'm at a point in my life after horrible relationships after another that I need to change life, the relationship that i have with myself and to do I also need to push this friend of mine out of my life. I've tried doing it before but every time I have a crisis in my life I run back to him because I feel I'm too weak to walk through life alone. My question is how do I stand alone and not run back to the dysfunctional friendship that I've had with this guy? How do I stand by my own words that I wont go back to this guy? I haven't been happy for the past few years and I'm certainly not happy with who I've become so far and I'm sick of it. I want to change and I know to do that he can never be a part of my life.