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Old Apr 19, 2010, 06:51 AM
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You're right! All of that was just me wishing and wishing.. I don't think I can help but wish things though. The answer is I can't try so hard anymore. It will still come to my mind, though, that I wish things were different. I guess I will have to gently remind myself to let those thoughts just float on by, rather than acting on them!
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It seems I just heard a sigh of relief out of you Gosh, you were really wearing yourself out with what seemed an obsession in if you wished hard enough, as people feel if they prayed long enough, it would become real.

Whew!

No guessing about it! Along with gently reminding yourself to let thoughts float by, (which I don't think you can, alone) talk it out with your t, some professional. You've been very intense and deliberate in your thinking and acting ideas out in you mind for some time now. Your desire to make things right seems ingrained, and it's not your job!

Now, if you've really given yourself some respite, think instead about yourself and what you can do for you! Gosh, you deserve every bit of energy you put into this issue, to turn it around and on yourself! Just think how much you could achieve in gaining your peace of mind back and, if possible, gain some inner peace. You certainly deserve it! Your big heart and soul needs it.


You don't need "good luck," you've got a whole lot of determination, go for it asap! We're here pulling for you girl, and we won't stop, or let you stop either.
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Old Apr 27, 2010, 01:10 PM
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And so the journey begins. Best wishes, jexa.
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Old Apr 30, 2010, 02:53 PM
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I am really proud of my sister. She has been clean since she got back from NY. Also, she decided to move in with my parents to save money. She signed up for a CNA course which starts next week and only takes 5 days. If she finishes, she will at least have some way to make money besides waiting tables. She says she wants to save money for a car. All of this when I totally back off and refuse to help her anymore.. here she is helping herself.

Because she has been clean, she was pretty clear-headed when she left for my parents'. She wasn't at all offended when I offered her a self-help book when she left, because she was talking about considering therapy but said it was too expensive. I was so proud to hear her considering it. I gave her the self-help book and told her maybe she'd find it as useful as I did.

So.. *crosses fingers* Here's to hope..
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Old May 05, 2010, 04:30 PM
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How are you and your sister doing, jexa?
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Old May 06, 2010, 11:54 PM
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I agree with Byz - set some boundaries with your sister to protect yourself. Also, there is no reason that YOU have to be the only responsible one in the family. I've been that person and it's a horrible, stressful place to be when you feel that everyone is counting on you and no one is helping you. I'm sorry your parents feel that it is a waste to try to help her.
WSS.

If there truly is no person in your circle to back you up, then go to your local social help/services/addictions/mental health services ect and seek out an out reach worker. They too can help BOTH of you decide what needs to happen.

IT IS NEVER A WASTE TO TRY AND HELP A SUFFERING BEING.

HOWEVER

it IS a waste, when in the process of helping, you end up with ANOTHER being harmed health or mental and emotionally wise. Think if it this way - you CANNOT help someone when you end up losing your own grip. Please be very very careful in this regard. DO NOT apologize for t hings that she needed to hear, even if painful. YOu can say " I am so so sorry that my comment or suggestion hurt you. That was sincerely NOT my goal. All i wanted is for you to see the bigger picture." There is something to be said for honesty, and even if she blows it off now, it can be fixed.
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Old May 07, 2010, 01:20 AM
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It sounds like you have lost your sense of separateness. You are not responsible for your sister and yet your associations seem to point to that perception. You are not responsible for her, don't need to be around her either. She's an adult and has made her own choices in life. Once you can slow down and find yourself inside of your mind, realize that your life is separate from hers, that your mind is not her mind and vise versa, you'll be better able to use the words "NO", "Go Away" and "I will not be around you when you are using"...and what ever boundary words you find that are appropriate. If she is a danger to herself and others, then she can be hospitalized and receive treatment and she can be sent to jail for assault. She has assaulted you, you describe her as dangerous and you worry about your safety. Assert yourself and your boundaries. There are laws against physical assault and breaking into property. Make use of the police if you have to protect yourself and to contain your out of control sister.

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I don't know what to do about my relationship with my sister.
She is addicted to opiates.. usually percocet.. snorts the pills usually. I am so mad because she had this great opportunity. Her friend paid for her to fly to New York and even gave her a place to stay and a job. My sister ruined it by punching her friend in the face when her friend called her a wh*re. The friend kicked her out and even paid for her flight home to be rid of her. I am so mad because now she is back in town. I thought she was finally getting out of the lowlife scene she'd gotten caught up in here! Not only that, now I have to deal with her again.

As you can see, not only is she an addict, she is also a dangerous person. She becomes violent very quickly when her logic is challenged. Once she pulled my hair while I was driving and could have killed both of us. She has punched me, slapped me, kicked me, and when we were younger (before she did drugs even), she held knives to me, scratched me (I have scars all over my arms from her), and threw things at me that really could have hurt me. She even hit my mom with a tree branch once. And threw a CD player at her once, too, giving her a large bruise.

But, my sister has another side. You would never, never, never know when you first met her that she had this violent streak. She seems very insecure and sweet when you first meet her. She is always agreeing with what everyone says and tries to be generous among her friends. She wants to be a good person and apologizes for her rages. I think she has a good heart, and a big huge drug problem and serious rage issues. Also I think she is thoroughly confused and may have BPD.

But, these rage issues were problems with her when she was young. They are now a problem only when she has been using, or is in withdrawal. When she is clean she clears up and becomes a normal human being. But I don't know what to do. She keeps justifying her problem to herself and if you try to challenge her she is dangerous!

We are supposed to hang out tomorrow. I agreed to take her to the beach. There are a few reasons why I maintain this relationship with her. First, I feel like I am the only sane voice in her life. I have been trying to carefully reframe her thinking in subtle ways, hoping that I will eventually reach her (while hoping not to step on a landmine). If she keeps hanging out with drug addicts and has no sane voice countering their mental acrobatics with logic, then I worry she will become further entrenched in this crazy dance of self-justification. Second, I am afraid of her, and afraid that withdrawing my friendship from her will be met with hostility and violence. Also, withdrawing my friendship from her will cause even MORE unspoken tension in a family that is CHOCK FULL of the "underwater currents." And I will become the newest scapegoat since I caused the most recent problem. And third, she is my sister and I love her. I love her so much. We have had such good and deep conversations together. We have cried together and she means so much to me. I don't want to lose our time together. What if she kills herself on these drugs?

But being around her makes me feel worse. And I am sick of walking on eggshells.

Someone help me.
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Old May 10, 2010, 09:37 AM
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Claire89-2 You are so right on. Look at the beginning of this thread, how long can you suffer?? This has been going on far to long, doing more harm, delaying professional help and hopefully some resolution for both parties. A firm stand and steel boundaries; help from professionals and just maybe progress can be achieved, but it must start.

If you love and you do, action will help you love softly, without fear. Please, give that to yourself, you are as needy as your sister, in a different manner. Take care of yourself, or you give neither of you a chance of peace nor contentment. That seems to be what you want.

I feel so hypocrytical giving an opinion in this subject. I have been at fault in my own problems, not following anyone's consul and continuing in a destructive lifestyle. It becomes a yo-yo, that see-saw smile, going to a no-where destination...stuck. So here am I, pleading for you to do what I cannot! Don't do that to yourself, the outcome is very unpleasant--.
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Old May 10, 2010, 02:28 PM
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