I am a failure

I was having a bad day yesterday even though things were going ok. I all of sudden got hit with the urge to drink. Well after therapy I ended up stopping by the liquor store and buying a 6-pack of Zima. I drank one and started to get light headed and finished it. I plan on drinking another one tonight and am scared that one is going to lead to 2 and so on. I know I shouldn't have bought it in the first place but I am still have problems with impulsiveness. I saw it was on sale thought what the heck I have the money lets get some. Now I have buyers remorse and can't bring myself to just throw them out. Think of me please.

Jbug

If you think you are a failure for this just give them away ...or dump them ...You might be able to get your money back take them to store say it tasted like crap and you want your money back

Why not just dump them? Or, if you want to get your money's worth out of them, set them up in the yard and throw stones at them until they break. (Never underestimate the fun of breaking things.)

Hi Jannie,
You have a choice to make.
If you want to be miserable and mad at yourself tomorrow, then drink up. If you want to wake up happy and proud of yourself then pour the rest of the Zima down the toilet-now!
Please choose the right thing. ((((((((((Janniebug)))))))))))

Many months ago you posted a very similar story. You had picked up a few Zima’s then and were telling everybody that you couldn’t bring yourself to throw them out. It was all a big joke then.

I called you on your noise then. I said something like the day would come when it wasn’t going to be so much fun. You were deeply offended then, get ready to be deeply offended all over again.

That last post was something like eight months ago, and nothing has changed in the interim. You are still sucking down those Zima’s and telling us how conflicted you are.

Not one word about going to AA meetings, not a word about calling your sponsor before you picked up those brews, not a word about asking God for the right thought or action prior to walking in that liquor store. Not a word about working the steps. Just the same old story.

Maybe the things you are doing aren’t what you need to be doing. Eight months and nothing is different, nothing has changed. Honey, you aren’t the producer, you don’t have the power to rewrite your story. Apparently you don’t like what’s going on, yet it goes on in spite of you.

Admitting powerlessness and unmanageability is the first step. You don’t have the power to pass up the liquor store all by your self. You must sense that truth at some level.

Richard