[splitimage]

I've been struggling at my job since I started it - getting really negative feedback, and I've also struggled with relapse since starting. Yesterday my addictions Dr. wanted me to quit my job for medical reasons and go back into the core addictions program (It's actually a concurrent disorders program so they deal with MH as well) I balked. Well today I got fired. I was still on the probationary period so they could let me go for no cause and with no notice. Basically they told me I was a bad fit and not performing up to thier standards. Well I called my addictions Dr., and one of my addictions nurses to tell them, this morning, and by this afternoon they'd arranged for me to start rehab on Fri. Normally their's a waiting list, but for some reason they always fast track me - guess it's because I've been a long time patient with them. They're not like most rehabs, once they get their hands on you - they don't let go, I think it's cause they are a concurrent disorders program. So I start rehab again on Fri. This will be my 4'th time in rehab (3'rd in thier program) Part of me feels like a failure for needing it again, but realistically I need the support - and I feel like they pulled strings to get me in. Not sure how I feel about taking the 10 weeks to do treatment and not job hunt full time, but realistically I know I need to be sober in order to get and keep another job.

Now I just have to figure out employment insurance.

--splitimage

[Leed]

Hi ~ Don't worry ~ you aren't the first one who has gone back a few times to Rehab. The GOOD thing is that you're going back!! I'm proud of you for that!! It shows that you really WANT to get clean/sober. I'm betting that this time will do it.

I wasn't smart like you -- I didn't go into rehab. I cold-turkeyed, and just went to meetings. As much as I had been drinking, its amazing that I didn't have seizures & DT's. Obviously, God was watching over me. The people in AA took me under their wings and kept me so busy that I didn't have TIME to even think about drinking or withdrawal. I was still working too, so between work, meetings and service work, I was on the go 24/7.

I'm so glad they got you right in. Having to wait would have been terrible. I know alot of people DO have to wait, and that's a darn shame. Please keep us posted on your progress, will you? I'd really like to know how you're doing. Best of luck ~ and I really think this time will do it. I just have a "gut" feeling. God bless & take care. Hugs, Lee

[racee]

yes i am glad you got right in...many of my close friends are still using and drinking becasue they don't have the money and the wait list is sooo long..that when they decide they want to quit there is no room and when they are too far gone room opens up...it's a horrible cycle. don't look at yourself as a failure i too have gone through treatment so many times no one took me seriously that's why the last time i did it on my own. so wonderful you have tons of help and people who care for you....you are one of the lucky ones people actually care if you stay sober, and help!

[madisgram]

sorry to hear about the job, SI. perhaps you were not ready for that. but good to hear u're getting the help you need. when we have a dual diagnosis sometimes it's more challenging to get it "right" i think. but please keep us posted and so glad you gave us the update. i know you can succeed. you continue to go back to get on the right track.

Hello, splitimage. Good luck.

[lastyearisblank]

You have such courage splitimage! Good luck!