[Jenn1fer82]

He was fired from his job bc he failed his drug test for meth. He said he's never done drugs and that it was a false positive bc with meth it uses over the counter medication to produce, I searched on it and it is true.. He said he was taking cold medication a few days before the test. Sense he's lost his job I have a gut feeling that things are not going right and he's not telling me the whole truth anymore. At the time I didn't know what or who to believe. I love the guy and I wouldnt ever want to imagine that he's doing drugs. When he had to return me $520 he gave me $490 instead and was making sure that I would believe him that it was $490 but I refuse and knew it was $520. He tried to take my money but I wasn't going to let him get away with it. He had a $100 on Friday and by Sunday he was broke. He said he used all that money on me but never once did I see a gift. I told him I want stability instead I dont care for flowers and gifts.

Just the other day I found two empty small drug bags the size of a half dollar and a quarter in his room. The two bags had tiny faces of the devil on them. The two tiny bags were in a shopping bag. I asked him why is it in his room. He said he doesn't know where it came from and that he brought it in from his car. He doesn't know how it got into his car. He said that I just have to believe him because he doesn't do drugs. As much as I want to take his words and believe him, how am I suppose to avoid and ignore these hard evidence. The bags that the holds the drugs, the failed drug test and then how he's been handling his money is so suspicious.

I had even asked him to take a home drug test and at first he was ready to take one but seconds later he refused and had every excuse in the book to take the test. He had even called his bestfriend to convince me that those home test are not dependable and I shouldnt use them to figure out if my bf has been using drugs or not. I wasn't going to buy the test, I wanted to just ask if my bf would even consider to take the test. Well I saw him back out, called his friends to convince me and then for the rest of the night he left to his friends house while I was home waiting for him.

I dont know how to walk away from him when I know I need support right now. I'm in the middle of leaving from one abusive home from my parents place and now into renting a room from strangers. In my circumstances I think I'll have to leave it all behind and go forward on my own. This is so difficult. I love him but I probably love the dreams I had for the relationship but I can't let go of those dreams. All my time and tears all wasted away.

[madisgram]

jen i had replied to your thread...don't know what happened. to answer in a short reply...imho he's using and will protect his addiction at all costs. even if he brings you down in the process. alcoholics and drug addicts take HOSTAGES. he's working on you already.
keep us posted and meantime consider your options.