[Mask317]

Hi, My name is Mask,

For years i have self medicated with weed. I know its illegal but its the only thing that gets me through, when i don't smoke its hard for me to just be normal, I've been told everywhere, even at the hospital that i don't have a real problem, that I'm not a danger to myself or others and all that jazz, but i disagree. I'm not saying that I'm a danger to anyone just, i get upset easily when i don't smoke. My nerves are like little fireballs under my skin. when i'm sober people just bother me. People talk all the time about how weed is bad and what not, BUT i maintain a job two in fact, and most people can't tell when I'm high EXCEPT for people who know what I'm really like sober..I have other problems but the weed..I just don't want to always have to smoke...whats wrong with me?

[RunningEagleRuns]

Originally Posted by Mask317

Hi, My name is Mask,

For years i have self medicated with weed. I know its illegal but its the only thing that gets me through, when i don't smoke its hard for me to just be normal, I've been told everywhere, even at the hospital that i don't have a real problem, that I'm not a danger to myself or others and all that jazz, but i disagree. I'm not saying that I'm a danger to anyone just, i get upset easily when i don't smoke. My nerves are like little fireballs under my skin. when i'm sober people just bother me. People talk all the time about how weed is bad and what not, BUT i maintain a job two in fact, and most people can't tell when I'm high EXCEPT for people who know what I'm really like sober..I have other problems but the weed..I just don't want to always have to smoke...whats wrong with me?

yea but you can end up in jail or prison. just saying.. i used to smoke marijuana too

[Rehabdirector11]

I believe now-a-days, with the wide acceptance of marijuana use and the growing support for medical marijuana in numerous states across the United States and all over the world people are using the medication recreationally. Their are very real aspects of a physical dependence to marijuana when one has been smoking weed for a long period of time but those effects are more likely the minor electrical sensitivity in the brain due to the decrease in dopamine being released. The real problem for a large majority of Americans entering the work force out of college are not that of giving up the feeling of being high but the actual act of smoking. This psychological dependence is not particularly related to the chemistry of the marijuana but the developed habits and rituals associated with smoking it. For example some users may always have to pass it to the left while smoking in a group and some may listen to a certain type of music while smoking. These types of rituals may run parallel to the smoker in questions everyday activities and thus smoking will come to mind commonly and strongly since smoking marijuana chemically makes you happy and you will associate those routines and characteristics of the situation more positively to smoking. When the behavior is linked positively it will be a much more difficult behavior to change and thus harder to quit. However it is not impossible for I am a recovering addict, went to treatment for numerous drugs and upon finishing my 3 years of hospital and rehabilitation stays, I began smoking marijuana as a replacement for the Klonipin I was prescribed. When I decided to go back to school with the full intention of graduating top 5% of my graduating class and attending Stanford graduate school, I decided that quitting marijuana was in my by intention. I never would have had the will power or motivation to quit if it weren't for friends and family who supported me and also an attainable goal for the future that requires you to quit smoking. These are just helpful suggestions from a fellow human being, hope they were useful.