[Justbyou]

I saw my therapist on Saturday morning and she suggested that I get a drug assessment test done. She feels that I need inpatient treatment. I finally made the call today. I was shaking the whole time I was talking to the lady. I’m not sure why I’m scared because I know what they are going to say. Maybe because I know this is the end to the life I know and the unknown scares me.

[Leed]

Please don't be scared! Even if you do have to go in-patient, that's not all bad! Since you've been a "binge-user" it's probably a good idea to go in -- and this could be the beginning of a sober-clean life for you! And you may not believe it, but sober living is MUCH more fun that I ever dreamed it would be!!!

I drank & drugged for over 20 years - and i could not imagine what I would do with myself sober. I knew I HAD to get sober, or die -- and i didn't want to die, so i joined AA. And after getting sober, I couldn't figure out how I had TIME to drink! There just aren't enough hours in the day!

You said "this is the end of the life you know" --- YES, it will be the end of the drugged life that you know. It's the end of the highs - and the awful lows. It's the end of running out of your meds too soon and trying to figure out how you'll get more -- or buying it illegally. It's the end of withdrawals that are awful.

How about getting up in the morning and feeling great? How about not feeling guilty anymore? How about not hating yourself anymore cause you "relapsed." How about being able to look at yourself in the mirror and now being repulsed? How about having friends - REAL friends, and not fellow "druggies?" I could go on and on about the pros of being clean, but you get the picture.

Don't be afraid. Take the advice of the therapist -- and if she thinks you need to go inpatient -- then go. It's the BEST gift you could give yourself. The "gift" of life that God gave you. Take care. Hugs, Lee

[gma45]

I agree with Leed. It is the best gift you could give yourself and you are worth it! Do not fear you have friends here! You are not alone, life can only get better!

[mackwhite]

I also agree with leed and gma45. Its one more chance for you to live your life very happily..So dont loose it again catch the opportunity and live your life happily