[Psyclox]

I'm an alcholic through and through my grandparents were alcholics my sister is one and so am I, people have said that its bad and all but in the end its all that I have left you take away m,y drugs and alchole I have nothing left, so fine they can take away my drugs but just not my alchole whithout that I am nothing but a empty shell of my former exsitince.

[shadowalker164]

We had but two alternatives: One was to go on to the bitter end, blotting out the consciousness of our intolerable situation as best we could; and the other, to accept spiritual help.

Your call Psyclox

On the road to the good stuff,
Richard

[Psyclox]

I believe what u have to say may be true but who is to say that the choices I have made regarding my life are wrong, the thing is my life is messed up theres no doubt about that one but when looking back upon it I relise that the choives I have made are all the ones I needed to make just to survive another day.

[mlyn]

[Raynaadi]

We can justify anything.

[ster]

Yes i know this only to well. What I was when I was using and not careing for anything or anyone. We all have to do everything we had to do. One day in 1990 I decided,if this was all there was to life - this was after a nite of crack with nothing left I tried to kill myself. as a good alce I screwed that up and someone came over the next morning I was just crying I had lost myself. I tried a few days before to get treatment after 3 hours they through me out. so I was tring toget help and I know I could not do it on my own. I went teatment center they had to let me go after 5 days ( no Ins) my first year was a very hard one in everyway the thought of using was there I was angry did not let anyone get close to me. it got easyer, but it took its time. today I have 15 years of not using an AS degree and a family that truly cares for me. I wish you well in the search for yourself May god be with you.