I am an alcoholic and I just lost my soul mate and wife of 22 years, married for 11 years. I need emotional support. I am safe, just mourning and grieving my better half. She died last week from blood clots in her upper chest. Her suffering has ended because she had been in and out of the hospital from this and other related health issues around twenty times since 2 years ago. She was dialysing 7 times weekly because she had zero kidney function. she wasn't a transplant candidate because of her clotting disorder caused by a protein deficiancy. I see my psychologist and have support from friends and coworkers and family. I am still sad and miss her. thank you.

[Insignificant other]

I am so sorry for your loss. Its going to take time, but that doesnt help the pain you are in now.
Just know that you are in my thoughts and prayers.
Be strong.

[madisgram]

oh brook, i am so sad you lost your soulmate. i believe i recall your posting about her a while ago. she had suffered so much. and now you are dealing with your loss. i recently dealt with a similar death-my son's father, age 65. it was unexpected. but it doesn't matter the circumstances when we lose somone precious to us the pain is real.
i'm glad you are doing as ok as you can at this time and that you posted. please keep doing so. we care about you.

[gma45]

So sorry for your loss. We are here for you, just keep posting it does help. As I remember she was in and out of the hospital. She is at peace now. I know that doesn't help you much because you are still here and I am sure lonely as all get out. Just know we do care, and if you need to vent this is the place to do it. Let it out! I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers.

[Leed]

Bless your heart Brookwest -- I too remember when you posted about your wife's illness. I am so very sorry for her loss. I know what grieving is. It is very painful, and I hope you have support there to talk to, face-to-face. We will always be here for you too -- don't forget that. Anytime you want or need to talk, we'll be here.

There are 5 stages of grief: Shock, anger, depression, bargaining, and acceptance. I never went thru the bargaining stage, but I went thru all the others when my husband died. The grieving process takes as long as it takes. It's different for everyone -- just don't try to hurry it. You'll know when you feel better.

God bless you my friend, and my prayers are with you. Please take care of yourself. Hugs, Lee

thanks everyone

[roads]

Please do post as much as possible & renew your support here.
Roadie