[wordlessdevotion]

I have decided to stop hating myself for being addicted to my pain medication. People talk down to me because I take a certain opioid. What they do not know or never get to see is me in so much pain in my back that I just want to die. I am accepting that I have to take these. I have tried many drugs and what I take now works and I am just tired of feeling like a bad person for taking pills. I hate them and I love them, a touchy relationship. I am not going to get a new spine so this is were I am at. I do not know what the future holds but at least I can function at a level that allows me to feel like a human being. I do not want to take drugs but have quit all the street drugs and rarely have a drink any more . I quit smoking pot. now I take what is prescribed which is not a lot and even though I miss having a good buzz I am becoming a better person. I need to be a better man for my girlfriend who still struggles with a few nasty habits, but looks up to me because she can see quitting the same things she is dealing with is possible. I am no better than any one else but am not going to kick my self any more for taking a drug that keeps me on my feet and somewhat involved with life.. This has been an unusual subject for me as I rarely sound this positive and would not expect me to sound like this very often. Thanks for listening, that felt good.

[Leed]

I doubt you're addicted. It sounds more like you're physically dependent, and there is a BIG DIFFERENCE. An addict CRAVES the medication and will do anything in his power to get MORE. He'll lie, cheat, steal -- anything to get it. I don't think you do that. Besides, you know all about drug, right?

You're just physically dependent. That's a huge difference from being an addict. People are ignorant about taking prescription drugs, and they automatically think you're an addict. That's stupid!!! You're taking them as prescribed!

So don't beat yourself up, and don't listen to anyone else. People don't know what they're talking about. Just take your meds like you're supposed to so you have some level of comfort and don't worry about it. God bless and take care. Hugs, Lee

[layla11]

Hi if you need pain medicine theres nothing wrong with that, its nobodys business and they shouldnt be looking down on you. My husband sees a pain specialist and takes pain meds, it keeps him from being in alot of pain and hes able to function. For the people who dont understand this, they are ignorant. I would stay clear of them, you are better then that.