[sweetdee]

I'm in a pretty low spot today. I'd been doing really well. Hit a bit of mania which had gotten my house cleaned which it desperately needed. Anyway, I've recently started taking topamax which had been crazy good for my alcohol cravings. I was able to have one glass of wine and was actually leaving glasses unfinished. Never in my life had I experienced that. As great as the Topamax has been for me it really doesn't address depression. I spend most of time in depressive state. I added some rhodiola rosea (an herbal therapy) back in. I found the rhodiola negated all the alcohol craving benefits the topamax offered. Consequently I ended up drinking at least a bottle of wine and having a seizure while I was drunk. I was fully conscious/aware during. I was journaling at the time and my whole right side had spasms as well as visual disturbances. Troubling was the fact that I didn't care if I died. I guess I just need to vent this. Husband is very busy right now. I really don't want to burden him with "oh btw had a seizure last night because I drank too much with my crazy meds." I really have no support other than him and he can only shoulder so much so I'm turning to you psychcentral. Not sure if this warrants a doc call or if I can just throw this one in the pile of stupidity (which is a very big pile). Thanks in advance if you made it through my long *** post.

[Cherry73]

I am glad you are ok. If it were me I would call the doc and just go in to be checked I make sure all is well and nothing else happens. If you were my SO, I would want to know how your feeling but you know your situation better than I. Again, I am thankful you are alright but please lean toward the safe side and call you doc better safe than sorry.

Thank you for sharing this with us, Sweetdee. Yes, I agree that you need to call
your psychiatrist and see about whether or not something like naltrexone might be
called for in helping you remove alcohol from your system.

You might wish to investigate naltrexone as a medication designed especially to
treat alcoholism. My understanding is that it effectively kills the craving for it.

I hope you will have a long discussion with your psychiatrist on this most recent
episode because it may really save your life in the long run.

Thanks again for letting us know your situation.

Take care of yourself, please.

[Teeku]

Seizures can lead to long term damage.. I had a similar experience but it was with different substances. I told myself I was fine the next day.. It's been a year. I now find it hard to recognize faces as normal. It's really bothersome. I am pretty sure it killed part of my brain.

For your sake now and later, call a doctor or psychiatrist.

[Leed]

Sweetdee ~ Have you ever thought about just calling AA and trying THEIR help? They literally saved my life. No, they won't do it with medication. You'll be on your own as far as that goes, but the SUPPORT is there! If you need someone, they WILL be there. If you're having withdrawals, someone WILL be there! If you need to talk, someone WILL be there.

My home group kept me so busy, that I didn't have time to drink! They had me taking the word of AA into prisons, juvenile homes, colleges, etc. I went to more than 90 meetings in 90 days, because I knew I HAD to get sober, or die!

Alcohol kills, Sweetdee. I have seen too many fellow members die from alcoholism. Alcohol kills the liver, and then the other organs follow. It's a horrible death -- I've seen it. Plus you are NEVER cured of Alcoholism -- it waits for you to relapse, and then it strikes again.

Try AA -- like I said, if it hadn't been for them, I wouldn't be here. God bless and please take care. Hugs, Lee