[leahsws2013]

So I managed to get the doctor to put me on Naltrexone for Alcohol and Opiate craving cessation and its also a blocker... yet... I got put on Klonopin... and have been eating them like candy. I try so hard not to but I know they're a benzo and I just want that drug rush high even though i won't get it from klonopin. -_-" Its like I try to get clean but run into something else.

Klonopin is also the only thing that keeps me from having panic attacks and yes I've tried Buspar and many other anti anxiety meds. So I'm having some real issues. I guess im just really ashamed that i know im gonna have to keep it quiet and stuff and idk.

Honestly, as an addict myself, I have to think of my addiction first, then my mental health issues second. Addiction will take me by storm. The last hospital stay I had for mental health I was put on a benzo for sleep. It helped... A LOT, however, when I found out it was a benzo, I had to immediately take myself off of it. It helped with the sleep but I knew my addiction would take that medication and run with it once I got out of the hospital. For my own protection I had to go on a journey of finding another medication that worked as well that wasn't highly addictive.

Hope this helps!

[volatile]

Klonopins are like liquor in a pill. They're pretty addictive :/ I used to take like 30 klonpins a day and also drink ontop of it. I OD twice doing that. they are very dangerous.

Don't keep it quiet. I used to dread being taken off klonopins and also not have alcohol to quell my anxiety but the longer I was completely clean the less my anxiety was and the easier it has become to cope with everything. it was scary but it was worth it. Klonopins will make your anxiety worse just like the alcohol did.